sometimes i wish i could just shut your mouth up
why say things that make others feel bad
does that make you feel better?
stop looking down on others
don't criticise others when you cannot even do it yourself
you're ain't no better
don't claim all the credits
you may have done a lot
but can you put yourself in other people's shoe and think
you are not the most important person
think before you speak
you're hurting everyone


Tmr's treasury tutorial will finally be a tragedy for me
so sick of everything
I'm losing me

MST is over!
gosh, I think I flunked it
questions are so tricky and yes I got tricked
Stupidity!!
forget it, its over anyway


went kbox with my jf pals today
been long since we went out tgt
sang for 6hrs from 12 to 6
weird timing, haha
da jie said that NUS and NTU require a 3.5 and 3.6 GPA for entry
I was like OMG
how am I suppose to get this GPA when this is alr the last sem
possible, maybe a 4 GPA for for this sem and distinction for FYP
which is practically impossible
kind of disappointed
looks like I've really got minimal chance to get into local U
maybe I should consider working and studying private U at the same time
provided if I can cope with the double stress level
I'm really so lost in my future
so sick with banking
Its so not my kind of job
I really regret not getting into early childhood instead
Its nicer facing kids than the bunch of rules and figures


Why do I have mic phobia
whats wrong with me?
I'm such a loser
How do I overcome this?
gimme a break arrrrgh

I don't wish to repeat things over and over again
But it just happen again and again
I'm really tired of it
especially when I can do nothing about it
and just sit and watch
I hate to see what I'm seeing now
I'm losing faith


Have you all ever cared about how I feel?
Or am I the one overlooking your concerns?
No one can ever give me an answer
Can only continue acting like a fool

Don't know what's wrong with my body today

feeling so weird and uneasy all over

my kneecap, my stomach and my throat hurts

think maybe i lack of sleep and ate too much donuts and bbq food

causing my body to be heaty

I feel so restless arrrrgh

and now my skin keep popping up swollen mosquito bites

and i don't know why

Forget it, i shall try to sleep earlier tonight and hope everything will be fine tmr

The bbq session yest was quite fun

heaven isn't so cruel to me afterall

the weather was rather fine

Although now the guys keep talking abt army bike and cars

I still enjoy their company and lame talks

look foward to the next gathering:)

Went kbox with clovers today

it has been long since all of us met up

although the meeting was short, I still enjoyed it

its monday blues

so no motivation to go to school tmr

its FYP two hours break and FMRP

boreddddd

was looking through and clearing msges in my inbox yest
once again i felt so touched and blessed
i'm so happy that there are so many pple ard me who cares and supports me
I've read those msges umpteen times but i still feel like crying reading it again
I was in the train on my way to school at that time
tried so hard to hold back my tears but to no avail
hope no one saw me cry
so embarrassing. LOL


Last saturday was one of the few family outing which i always wished for
my family went out tgt to purchase new furnitures for my new house
I really enjoyed it although there were disagreements here and there
I find it really hard to even have a chance where we can have a simple dinner tgt
maybe only for special ocassions and birthdays
reminds me of my bday this year
I felt so happy as it was years way back when my family
ever sing a bday song for me and blew a cake with them
I think i gotta thank my brother for all these
I don't need a grand party or what
with my family and friends that i love by my side and its enough alr
This year's double surprise by my family and my silly friend at my house
really gave me a shock of my life
so short but so sweet
and not forgetting the cable car rides at Sentosa
I don't think I really deserve all these lurves
I hope in the upcoming years I won't be so afraid to celebrate my bday again


Also last saturday night i think i finally cleared out my thoughts
and realised some things that I didn't realise few months back
maybe its better in this way
I will focus on my studies
School nowadays is still okay
although there are a few boring modules which I hate
I still enjoy joking ard with my crazy pig friends
and making fun of pple and lecturers
omg, we will be PUNISHED. LOL
But times in tutorials can be stressful
suddenly everyone in class except for my group prepare tutorial in advance
everyone start participating in class
what happened to them?
omg again, I must really buck up


Looking forward to the gathering tonight. YEAH
but its raining now
I believe I'm just plain unlucky
but hope heaven won't be so cruel to me
I don't wanna waste everyone's effort
Thanks yun's mum for her help
appreciate it a lot
Love her lots too!
I hope i can be blessed today!
wish me LUCK!!


P.S: Rain Rain go away! you can rain tmr even its with thunders and lightning.PLEASE

School this week is rather slack
most tutorials are cancelled and there are so many breaks in between
I'm still in my holiday mood
gotta buckup from next week onwards


Results this time round was okay
but the improvement in my cumu gpa is like so minimal
I'm really afraid my final year reults will leave me in an awkward position
especially when competition is so aggressive in the dragon year
I can only try my best ba


My throat is so itchy now after eating 3 donuts yest
Fatness, arrrgh
gotta go workout again after my leg stabilize
but my timetable is like so sucky
so difficult to squeeze out time


I miss clovers
haven met up for long
everyone's so busy
hope to see them soon:)

Just finished watching Heart Of Greed
omg its like so damn nice
best drama i've ever seen
nice plot nice casts everything is so nice
Its so realistic
At the same time I can see that how ugly human can be
Fighting over the estates being more important than family ties
Money really is the cause of harm
yet people just can't live without it
I love their family, so touching
although there are so many obstacles
they managed to pull through together
I hope my family will never get into disputes becos of money matters
Thats so not worth it


Suddenly feel so aimless
dunno what show to watch next
I'm afraid I will get myself too involved in shows again
haven been very emo these few nights while watching Heart of Greed
crying so much as if i'm acting in the show
getting headaches and not being able to fall asleep
damn dramatic
I should take a break and watch something more light hearted instead


omg, results coming out this wed
don't feel good
I don't think I should comment any further
cause i keep repeating my mistakes
when there is only so little time left to make amends


time to sleep:)